May 28

A year ago, my mom was in hospice. Exactly 1 year ago from last Friday she was moved there. It's kinda weird to think that I was with my mom exactly one year ago. I wish I could go back to then, yet I don't at the same time. I didn't like to see her struggle, but I did like to be with her.    

This is Hospice, the place where she stayed until she died. I liked the place a lot, but I never want to enter those doors again. 

 

May 20

I started drivers training a week ago-I'm actually not that bad of a driver! The only problem that I have is seeing over the steering wheel. I have to sit on a pillow. :) 

The classes of drivers training are REALLY boring. But the drives are fun :) 

Here's a couple pictures of what my siblings and I do on Sundays. :)

And here's a picture that pretty much sums up what kind of relationship me and my mom had. . . we had a good one. If only it wasn't cut short.

Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day mom.

I love you.

A song

So, a while back I made up a song for my mom. Here is a video of some of it... there are other verses but I decided to just do the first verse for now. I'm singing this song at my school talent show :)

Well, I hope you enjoy it. And it is me singing, but it's not me playing the piano. I will learn how to play it eventually... but right now I don't know how to.

April 22

I can’t go on now

without you beside me

I feel like God isn’t even there

like He promised he would be 

I can’t do anything

I want you here

mom, right now

I don’t think that even God is near

how am I supposed to go to school

how am I supposed to carry on? 

God, if you're out there

please, please, help this pain be gone. 

April 16

Emily (my sister) turned 8 on Saturday. I planned a Disney themed birthday party for her! We had 11 first grade girls at our house... it was crazy! But, it was really fun and turned out really great.

I'm in soccer, and today we had to head a soccer ball into the net... sliding through a pit of mud! Here's a picture of how our team looked after this.













We are writing a poem in Language Arts about where we are from. The directions are just to write something that makes sense to you... it doesn't have to make any sense whatsoever to anyone else! So, here's what I wrote:

I’m from

I’m from the “I love you’s” 

that could last a lifetime

the unforgettable love

that reaches to the sky

I’m from the kisses to my hands 

every night I left 

I’m from the late hot chocolate nights

that will never happen again. 

I’m from a tragic experience

from the cries during the night

from the last time I saw her

in the horrible hospice room.

I’m from the last “I love you”

that I wish to hear again

but I never will 

until the miraculous day I see her

behind Heavens gates. 

I’m from a God 

who carries me through the dark

who shines a light in me

so that I may shine

with her courage. 

April 9

Florida was amazing! It was mid 90's all week! I got the most burnt out of everyone... We were swimming in the pool one day, and everyone was telling me that  I should go put some more sunscreen on because I was looking red... but, I didn't.... so I payed for it later :/ 

We all had a really good time, though, especially at disney. :)

Here are some pictures that I edited of my siblings and me.