August 28

I kinda need you here mom. Pretty much really bad. I wish you could come back and I know that's selfish, but it's the truth.

1st day of High School

Well, today was my first day of high school. That building is soooo big. I only got lost once, though. It was only a half of a day so all of our classes were 5 minutes. All the teachers seem really nice, which is good. But, of course, I'm getting sick. I woke up today not feeling so well and now I have a cold.... and it sinks. Nathan and Emily also had a good 1st day, Emily is going into 2nd grade and Nathan is going into 6th. So, we all had pretty good first days and hopefully a good year will follow(:

August 16

I wrote this poem tonight and thought that I would share it, so here it is :)

How can I get through this? 

How am I suppose to stay strong? 

I want to be a normal kid

why does pain have to sting so long? 

Jesus can you hear me? 

I kinda have a situation here. 

I'm drowning and can't find the surface

and I feel as if no one is near. 

my mom meant everything to me 

and now all I can do to feel close to her is write. 

Jesus, it would be pretty cool if you could give me a sign from her some night. 

but for now I'll just pray

I'll put all my trust in  you. 

i hope that in the future, everything will turn out okay.